When I first found out I had MS, like I said, I was only 22 years old. I did alittle research on MS but not really enough to truely grasp what it was. Basically, I read enough to scare me to death, and make me really pissed off at God! Keep in mind that I was not a very possitive person! I had a negative outlook on pretty much everything!
So.....for 2 weeks, I stayed angry at God, constantly asking him WHY? Why me? What did I do to make you so angry? I'm only 22 and you have ruin my life!!! I thought you were a loving God? I have to deal with this for the rest of my life.... there is NO cure! Why God? Why do you hate me so? Then it happened!.......
God didnt hate me, he loved me more than ever! I just didnt realize it! God just wanted to make me realize that I NEEDED HIM! There was no longer room for my negative attitude! If I was going to be a negative nelly then I just needed to crawl under a rock and stay there! But, NO! I was only 22 years old and I was not going to give up that easy!!
I accepted my diagnoisis of MS and decided to face it head on! With God's help ofcourse! I was scared and totally uneducated about MS. I started reading everything I could about MS and asking my doctors all kinds of questions. I wanted to know what I was up against. With the help of my family, friends and God, I chose to not let this scary sounding thing get me down! I was to young, I still had a lot to do in my life!!
SO.....I can honestly say that being diagnosed with MS was the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I went from little miss negativity to having a very possitive outlook on life! Its been something I've had to get use to because like with anything, I have my good days and my bad days. But, most of the time I forget that I have MS...but only by the Grace of God!
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